Moving On

I'll be on a very short blog. There's too many things I want to write but I can't find time and energy to do it. Maybe because I'm not that inspired and I'm still depress for not having a solid plan for myself. I hate to say this... you'll see less of me for the days to come for I am gonna devote my spare time trying to make something big. I am up to something bigger in terms of expressing myself.

As of the moment, I cannot say that I am on the right track. For i really don't know what's really in store for me in the future. Having no job and idle for months now. It is normal that depression visits me once in awhile. I am now open about accepting that not all the decisions I made whether for my career or personal is right. Now I can talk about trying to win over depression and defeat. A good sign of moving on, soon enough it'll be okay. I am starting to go back to the track and willing to start again from the scratch.

I failed, somehow I am still depressed, helpless, erratic, selfish and alone. I was tested and continuously being tested. I am trying to cope and I am trying to stand up again little by little. I know every morning that I wake up with conviction I can tell myself that I can handle everything and face the challenges of life.

I realized that not getting what I aspire for won't make me a lesser person. I am still gonna continue to learn, to do what I am good at and share what I know from this day and everyday of my life.